#insane in the brain abt her rn

[mourning-at-night]

ok im going to ramble for a minute but i think van palmer's turn towards violence is so interesting. like in the beginning, she nearly throws up just thinking about allie's broken leg. she can't watch when shauna sobs over her baby's body. but then she's one of the first to truly believe and accept that they'll end up turning to violence in order to survive - she stops and she watches shauna beat their friend and teammate and she knows. it's brutal and bloody and near deadly, but this time, she doesn’t look away.

despite her weak stomach, she's always been willing to do what she believes is necessary. to her, violence isn't intriguing or sensational or something to be celebrated - but it is something to be resorted to, one of those things she sees as an inevitability, a necessity, no matter how painful or nauseating or depressing. she’ll slap her mother awake, but first she'll call out to her. she'll hunt nat through the woods and she'll let a 14yo drown, but only because she and taissa and lottie and everyone who she cares for, they're all starving, or hurt. she will do what she believes it will take to keep herself and her loved ones alive, at least most of them, at least as many of them as possible - because, of course, she’s always tried so hard to be the protector. that's who she is, shown in a thousand little ways. she plays goalie. she tries to break up the fight between tai and shauna in the pilot and she starts to defend nat when travis is being a dickhead in bear down and she helps hold shauna back until lottie tells them not to in burial. she tries to look after tai when she sleepwalks, like how she possibly had to look after her mother for years. she jokes around and she tells the group stories, trying to keep them connected to the outside world.

i think it's interesting to see a character so solidly rooted in the idea of protection to be the one spearheading violent action. it's ironic and tragic and it makes sense, because as yellowjackets shows, over and over - care is not an inherently gentle or bloodless act!! it's van telling the others to leave her bleeding in the woods after the wolf attack and it's tying herself to tai even though she gets hurt and it's helping carry bodies onto the plane and digging graves. it's telling tai she loves her for the first time by literally writing it in her own blood.

sometimes it’s painful. sometimes it's not healthy or righteous. sometimes it’s the hard choice - putting forth the playing cards and joining the hunt and watching with grim determination as javi struggles and cries out for help, and then separating herself and the others from the choice to let him die by claiming the wilderness made it for them. reaching out and turning his face away from shauna when it’s time for the bloodletting. convincing travis to cannibalize his little brother by telling him that he owes javi this final act of love.

it's giving up retelling movies and tv shows and instead telling a different story, a quiet, cold one, because she believes the only way for them to survive out in the wilderness is to give themselves over to it fully, no matter how horrible - because, after everything, what choice does she feel she has but to persist? even in wiskayok, living was always a fight, another series of necessary actions in order to Get Through It and Get Out. after the alcoholic mother and ambiguously unmentioned father and the trials of being young and gay and butch in the suburbs of 90s new jersey, she wants a future, so badly. and after having to pull herself out of the crash and surviving the wolf attack and the pyre, after spending months watching the others around her suffer and starve and die, she can't pull out of the fight. she wouldn't even know how. like a brutal, desperate instinct, she must survive, and she must protect.

it's agonizing but she won't let herself feel it and it's endless but she can only think about the end result. it's selfish in the way they're almost all selfish and it's loving in the way they all love - but especially van, who is so deeply and fiercely protective, who has always cared so much. in the end, that protective instinct both keeps her painfully human and pushes her out into the deep end. it's the kindest and most wonderful piece of her being and it's an intense force that leads her towards brutality. because sometimes caring is the violent thing!! sometimes love is violence and violence is love!!!!

[yappacadaver]

lyrics for you

My love, I am the speed of sound I left them motherless, fatherless Their souls they hang inside-out from their mouths But it's never enough

I want you

Carved your name across three counties Ground it in with bloody hides Their broken necks will line the ditch 'Til you stop it, stop it Stop this madness

I want you

I have waited with a glacier's patience Smashed every transformer with every trailer 'Til nothing was standing 65 miles wide Still you are nowhere Still you are nowhere Nowhere in sight

Come out to meet me Run out to meet me Come in to the light

Climb the boxcars to the engine through the smoke into the sky Your rails have always outrun mine So I pick them up and crash them down In a moment close to now 'Cause I miss, I miss, I miss, I miss, I miss I miss how you'd sigh yourself to sleep When I'd rake the springtime across your sheets

My love, I am the speed of sound I left them motherless, fatherless Their souls they hang inside-out from their mouths But it's never enough

My love I'm an owl on the sill in the evening But morning finds you Still warm and breathing

This tornado loves you, this tornado loves you This tornado loves you, this tornado loves you This tornado loves you What will make you believe me? This tornado loves you, this tornado loves you This tornado loves you, this tornado loves you This tornado loves you What will make you believe me?

Neko case writing Yumi lyrics

[keeps-ache]

need to be exploding something but i Can't for some reason. just Can Not. my ability to do is just. Nay

[arolesbianism]

Ok yeah I’m a little obsessed with them

[qualityrain]

I too am cn dub truther, I play gi and hsr on cn, I'm chinese. I definitely prefer cn owl, ana and raven. I think their cn voices match their characters (that i made up mostly) more.

My backstories for ana and owl are kinda edgy and incredibly elaborate, especially owl's. So it's kinda embarrassing to talk about them.

I'll start off with some of my less unhinged hcs.

Ana's mother is cecilia's younger sister. Which makes her kiana's cousin.

Owl loves horror movies. He's also a massive gaming nerd, he's really good at it too. Ana also loves video games and has a natural talent for it.

Owl would never admit it out right, but he thinks of raven as a friend of sort. He knows about raven's probably dead brother and has told raven about his probably dead sister. But they never bring it up again.

This is less a hc and more me choosing to ignore canon. But I think that ana and owl should have been allowed to talk to each other. So I will just say that after manila, they didn't meet face to face until the coral arc. But they did kept in contact with one another, mostly cuz ana felt guilty but she still genuinely enjoys owl's company.

Also I think that both of them are kinda pathetic wet cats with tons of repression. On top of being a qpr, t4t, they are also girlfailure x boyloser.

A FELLOW CN DUB TRUTHER,,,,,and also a gi hsr player??????? i used to pray for times like this,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,when i found out childe(another character i like) and owl have the same va i lost my shit then when hsr leaked my friend messaged me to tell me that dh and owl sound the same 😭😭😭

ana and kiana being cousins!!!! so true funnier when their names rhyme w each other. I do not know if its ever mentioned in game but in honkai wiki it says kianas like 20? which means shes like 2 years older than ana so it would be cute if ana was named after kiana

the way that “did you know flareon is the only fire type pokemon that cannot use solar beam?” meme has been living in my head constantly for owl @ ana 😭😭 esp when that year was 2015 so gen 7 wasnt out yet but in 2017 gen 7 came out and flareon is now no longer the only fire type pokemon that cannot use solar beam!!

owl is a major gaming nerd so true!!!!i think owl and ana would play those 2 player fps games at the arcade. (cringe coincidence story is how i hc owl as a filipino and im a big mlbb esports fan esp to this one team and had a whole crack ws officer mlbb au and then last yr that esports team had a new rookie whose ign is owl)

OUGHHHH RAVEN AND OWL BEING SOMEWHAT FRIENDS,,,,,,,,,,i wish there was more screentime between them because i think their relationship is so interesting,,,,,,,,,like theres so many interesting commonality between them to explore,,,,,the whole probably dead sibling thing,,,,,,,(esp in er when its implied that owl met sakura,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,mhy u make the flamechaser w a dead little sister meet the ws officer w a dead little sister and not elaborate???????????(granted idt sakura knew her sister was dead at that point in time(probably???))) and the whole implication that owl and raven do talk outside missions with the whole “that S rank valk again?”,,,,,ik raven complains about rita to owl every time they meet,,,,,

ignoring canon is my hobby when it comes to ana and owl i havent rewatched chap 19 in a year and i like to think it doesnt exist other than rimestar because i think rimestar is cool (also actually really salty they couldve made a HoStars owl design!!!!!! ok cowards!!!(ik its too much effort for a side character)) you are so right ana and owl should be allowed to talk to each other more!!!!! imo i think they talked more when owl was at the hospital or smth because the dude was like buried under a building and ana only left after he was discharged or smth. but also them keeping in contact 🥺🥺 bet they had cute contact names for each other

you are soooo right ana and owl are a girl failure and boy loser ship!!! ana is the sole survivor of her squad twice and then the second time kills her squad and others (unintentionally) and owl is unable to protect the ppl he cares about twice and has to watch them die!!!! they are terrible at their roles and even worse at communicating mhy when will they be happy (they are not present in the da capo scene with everybody alive and happy)

[lazyveran]

every month i change my mental illness. why must my brain hyperfixate on another completely insane person. why

[yamikawas]

yoomtah! is! coming! for! you! she just need to get more rope first <3

WELL IF THIS ASK IS IMPLYING WHAT I HOPE ITS IMPLYING I DONT MIND WAITING AS LONG AS SHE PLANS TO KEEP ME AND LOVE ME FOREVER EHEHEE<3<3<3<<33<3<<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3333<3<3<3<<<3<3

[officialspec]

thinking really hard about your brisbane meshi au rn . any more thoughts u have that u haven't shared please my family is starving

none of this is fully fleshed out yet but i can drop some stuff ive been thinking abt in the background :}

the canaries

pattadols mother is a city councillor and started a restaurant as a rehab centre for community service (and then forced pattadol to manage it). either her or her mother is constantly on senshis ass for being unpermitted which is part of the reason he hates elves

mithrun is an ex-adrenaline junkie, im thinking either rock climbing or urban exploration. got disowned from his rich family after suffering a traumatic brain injury on an outing. currently works as line cook i think

fleki and lycion are both ravers, unsure if lycion would have the beastkin tats since im still undecided on magic existing in this au. they roughed it together for a while and now share a 1bed somewhere southside with a rescue dog and like 15 birds they dont technically own. lycion is waitstaff and fleki is a cook :9

otta i have no clue. sorry girl. shes waitstaff/cash handling and flirts w the customers

cithis is hostess OBVIOUSLY. got got doing fraud like 3 times and they couldnt make the charges stick until the fourth. also flirts w the customers but doesnt mean it as much

amendments to previous stuff

one of my friends suggested falin studying mortuary science and im mad i didnt think of it sooner. so thats what shes doing now

marcilles current thesis is on telomere length in jellyfish and the potential applications to oncology research. laios thinks its insanely cool and sends her a lot of (mostly unrelated) papers he finds on scihub

still trying to figure toshiro out. best i have currently is his father sent him to work retail in his late teens to become more worldly or whatever rich ppl do and thats where he met laios and namari at their first job. i feel like i had more but its not coming 2 me atm

[silverflqmes]

hi guys i am alive, i am working another sfkr oneshot bc im insane and the brain worms got to me but anyway, i came once more bearing a song, and it’s not taylor swift this time ( i’ll yap abt her another time in regards to sfkr )

BUT THIS, THIS SONG.

I DID NOT PAY ATTENTION TO THE LYRICS DURING THE END CREDITS BUT WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS LITERALLY THE MOST SEFIKURA SONG EVER???? AND IT’S IN THE FUCKING SOUNDTRACK OF THE GAME???

the beginning gives zakkura vibes and could honestly function as a song for them too BUT.

THIS IS JUST SO CLOUD AND SEPHIROTH CODED WTF.

LIKE HELLO??? SEPHIROTH WHEN HE GIVES CLOUD A PURPOSE EVERY TIME HE LOSES HIS WAY AND THE REUNION VIBES TOO LIKE DUDE THIS IS INSANE TO ME.

CLOUD BEING IN DENIAL AS WELL NOT BEING ABLE TO DISTINGUISH REALITY FROM DREAM OR DELUSION LIKE UGH WISKSHDKSHS

AND THIS PAIRS SO WELL WITH THEIR EXCHANGES IN REBIRTH, “FILL YOUR HOLLOW HEART” LIKE DURING THIS IS JUST WIEIEJEHEMRNMEKEKEOE IM SO ILL.

ahem, anyway i could yap more, so maybe i’ll add onto this later cuz i got stuff to do rn but i just NEEDED to get that out. for now.

on another note hopefully i will have that sfkr oneshot done soon bc its making me fucking insane.

[2plolohs]

The fact that after this paragraph I was already going fucking insane. Dude. Rosemary thoughts rose thoughts

The motherhood angst from all directions. The girlhood angst from all directions. Rose, seer of light, not knowing what to do without some sort of righteous cosmic purpose. Jade and rose just generally being fucked up adults. Everybody just generally being fucked up adults.

Unchecked yapping under the cut

18 YR OLD ROSE GETTING MAD AT JADE ABT HER MOTHER HELLO I WANT TO SEE THAT?

After Rose’s whole “ramble” I cant stop thinking abt Jade saying how rose agreed to having Yiffy because “she wanted to see what would happen.”

I also refuse to accept that rose is right abt any of her predictions I’m sitting at the bottom of the Nile River in Egypt ok.

I mean! She doesn’t know that Dave is alive! So if she’s wrong abt that she could be wrong abt other things. Fucking Dave I’m so mad at him this ain’t abt him

I’m so excited to see rose and kanaya talk again, I cannot wait. For many reasons. Kanaya Maryam when she’s angry, “flighty broads and they’re snarky horseshit,” this time with soap opera ass betrayals in the middle of a war!

I want to know what Kanaya would say abt rose’s beliefs on their fate. I wonder what SOLLUX, mage of doom would think. Ok that’s off topic. No but rlly, I hope with my whole heart rose says something to Kanaya, Rose my beloved u r being so STUPID rn. None of them are okay.

And I wonder if rose can see the parallels between her thought process, “I’m going to die and my daughter’s heart is going to be broken but nothing can be done fuck this stupid baka life,” and that of her mothers.

Like ok remember when kanaya was talking abt roses mom, “Evasive. Pushy. Lacking In Proper Coping Mechanisms. Carrying An Air Of Unspeakable Sadness.”

I don’t know enough yet to rlly say anything on the matter but when rose was narrating her thoughts abt her imminent doom and how it would affect Vrissy my brain made a connection, IDK

I have to stop here bc these bitches r driving me insane ☝️ I spend way too much time picking apart Homestuck BC.

Maybe I’ll talk abt karkat living up to the vantas legacy next and the dolorosa and signless parallels between kanaya and karkat rn I’m sick

[pearlzier]

more beau + puppygirl!gf thoughts.. instead of actually working in the fic😸👍🏼 (most of these things will come alive and be way more detailed in it tho trust🤝) but make it sexual this time cus i REALLY HELD BACK the other times i sent them (tumblr gods pls don’t eat this one thnx🙏🏼)

their almost first time together, she’s over at his trailer n they’re watching a movie n it’s kinda cold out… so she steals his old houston pd hoodie and beau goes Absolutely feral crazy insane.. but when it starts to get Really Heated she stops him n is like “beau, the bugs! we can’t traumatize them!!!!”

BREEDING KINK! BREEDING KINK! BREEDING KINK! LIKE IM SORRYYYYY (no i’m not🤭) Both of them!!!!! they have it!!!

Every Single Time she has a wet dream, beau gets woken up in the middle of the night to her whining and grinding on his hip or thigh

one time she was being really bratty and getting snappy with him n other ppl and beau was NOT abt that.. so orgasm denial, spanking, the whole nine…. he kept that up for literal HOURS and never let her cum (gave the most AMAZING after care in the world tho, cus that’s babygirl sweetheart) and then the next day beau got off work earlier than usual n came home to come home to surprise her (with some cutesy little gifts and a plan finally fuck her right)…. and found her riding his pillow wearing nothing but his black aviator jacket😸🙌🏼

one time they go out to this bar neither of them have ever been to before, kinda outside of town.. and while beau is at the bar getting there drinks some randon girl tries to flirt with him n OF COURSE he immediately turns her down and is like “no, absolutely not, i have a girlfriend, get away from me” but the bitch just Is Stupid clearly n like won’t take no for an answer and is being all “idcc that you have a gf, blah blah blah” and beau is rolling his fucking eyes SO Hard😭 and this whole time she’s watching from their table across the way… like she KNOWS he’s trying to get this girl away from him and that she’s just a fuckin weirdo, but she still gets jealous n possessive, so after a few minutes she marches right up there in her cutesy little dress and chunky ass demonia platforms and tells the girl off!! literally gags her so bad beau’s trying not to laugh.. then she drags him off into the bathroom and goes feral crazy insane, covering his neck in hickeys and bites . . . and Sooo many other things. she gets very dominant (the first time ever) and beau loves it So much, like he is Absolutely eating it up and it so willing to be subby for her

this is all i have for rn😞 cus my brain is just going a thousand miles a minute and i can’t keep a coherent thought for long enough to save my life

Call me flex tape the way I’m trynna hold back all this wetness ‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🙏🙏🔥🔥

BEAU + PUPPYGIRL!READER MY FAVOURITES EVER FUCKING DIES OHSJDGDDB I LOVE THEM........ DIES

[b1mbodoll]

your yunjin posts are killing me like ik doja might be a bit controversial rn but yunjin is so agora hills coded i canttt 😩😩 and you & your anons talking abt her being soso possessive and constantly having to show everybody that youre hers does NOT make existing easier for me omgshsksk

also i saw youve been dealing w some p ugly things recently so i hope youre doing sm better now bc you dont deserve all the bs thats (been) going on //: just know that we all love and appreciate you sm!! 💘💘

<🫧33

pairings: huh yunjin x f! reader

warnings: exhibitionism + fingering + oral

💌: firstly i wna thank u for ur kind words my love! they mean a lot to me and i hope u know i love and appreciate you!!! mwah u deserve the world ♥︎ and SECONDLY!!! MY LOVE U HAVE KILLED ME. i <3 agora hills and yunjin im gna go insane???

“you can hit while they watch boy” is SO rockstar yunjin x reader like… she doesn’t care who’s watching n neither do you!!!! gropes you and kisses you messily no matter who’s around n it makes you so wet bc she’s absolutely shameless!!! fingers you in the car on the way to one of her shows, the driver trying so hard to act normal despite your cries of pleasure coming from the backseat.

she also eats you out in the dressing room at the venue after a show bc the adrenaline coursing through her veins makes her insatiable, desperate to taste you on her tongue n hear you moan her name <3

ok forgive me bc i just smoked so my brain is goin crazy but… rockstar yunjin would love when you throw your bra at her onstage 😭 she slings it around the neck of her guitar and walks around the stage, grinning like a freak when she makes eye contact with you n sees your hardened nipples poking through your top

[scruncheduppaper]

can we talk abt how insanely hot kabru is

ive probably posted these a billion times before but idc. hes got everything. this brown twink is so pretty idk im pretty sure if he smiled at me with those fucking eyes id fold immediately. i get why hes popular with the ladies (im falling for it oh no) hes just the right amount of a bit freaky and silly for him to still be human. hes a gentleman when he needs to be and hes actually a really fucking kind human being at the same time like hes a genuinely nice guy

most of all though i think his ruthless mind and sharp analytical skills (in terms of humans) is just the most appealing to me. the way his brain ticks and the descriptions of his thinking process is like the equivalent to fanservice panty shots or whatever. i like seeing him covered in blood ohhh my god i get ppl simping over falin in that scene but i think kabru stabbing her made my stomach do flips. do you understand. i would Let him psychoanalyse me and/or stab me. in fact id encourage him to do it. it’d probably be hot. kabru please reject me so i can move on with my life. i understand rin so fucking bad (i love her too btw)

this is not a general post. this is personal. this is my account i can say whatever i want idc idk im like rlly tired rn. kap. kapru

anyways too tired to draw properly today have a little doodle. i might make an edit of him later

[sun-stricken]

Do you have any hcs abt the natsu, erza, gray trio?

I AM SO SORRY I HAD A BAD CASE OF WRITERS BLOCK AND MY BRAIN ISNT BRAINING, ITS KINDA BLAND BUT HERES UR LONG AWAITED LIST🙏🙏

* literally so fucking close, siblings im telling you

* they are a trio full of contradictions, cant assume anything with them

* they argue so much. all of them.

* Showing up at each others places with zero forewarning just to sleep or raid their fridge is an average night for them

* Its a common occurrence to see Erza walking calmly with them under her arms or over her shoulders

* Every new guild member with fail has a crush on one of them

* Natsu and Gray bring out the dumabass in Erza, according to her it’s contagious

* Natsu and Gray taught themselves morse code for the soul purpose of arguing when Erzas around

* Gray frequently blocks Natsu on every media platform he has, even email with no explanation for days

* Erza holds both Gray and Natsus ‘leashes’ and Gray holds Natsus and Natsu thinks hes free

* Theres never a dull moment with them

* “This is a safe space” *says literally anything* “This is no longer a safe space!”

* Erza is the designated bug killer between them

* They, as a trio, are black-listed from over half the establishments in Magnolia. individually or just two of them or with just one more person they’re completely fine. But not just them.

* Natsus the type to collect the most embarrassing photos of people and send them to his victims years later

* Erza genuinely had to sit down and stare at the wall for an hour after receiving one of these photos

* Natsu participates in cathartic screaming. Which means he lets out blood curdling screams at random times and scares the shit out of everyone around him

* Sent Erza and Gray into near panic attack the first time, now Gray joins in and Erza referees it like a competition

* Erza is a covert MENACE to them. Straight up psychological warfares on them

* Erza, whispering: you just lost the game

* Gray: im going to kill us both please just let me live—

* Gray knows random laws off the top of his head and will call the other two out for the stupidest ones

* sometimes he lies tho just to fuck with them

* They 100% share clothes and pack extra for each other while going on jobs

* Gray owns many hawaiian shirts and they definitely bully him for it but keep getting him more

* On many occasions, Erza has subtly instigated things that she knows would end up with Natsu and Gray fighting for her own entertainment

* They all have a constant need to prove people wrong and have issues with authority, they hate doing what people tell them to

* “try not to die” “fuck off no” “?? the hell you mean ‘no’????”

Golden retriever, Calico cat, and Black cat friends

yeah thats all i got for rn, but here are more quotes as a treat, free of charge!

Erza: Gray? What are you doing here? 
Gray, wearing a hawaiian shirt, sunglasses and holding a gatorade: My best.

Natsu: If you listen closely you can hear the sound of my brain sizzling 
Erza: Ah yes, the sweet melody of insanity 
Gray: Its just the wii music but sped up and off key

Erza: Do you guys ever have a civilized conversation that doesn't require insulting each other every time you get a chance? 
Natsu: No. 
Gray: No. 
Erza: Didn't think so.

[nulltune]

fgo ordeal call 3 spoilers!!! (ФωФ)

but also if You Know, and would like to interact with You Know Who (not voldemort okok but a Certain New Moon Cancer) then hmu.......

IF U HAVE BEEN KEEPING UP WITH FGO U'VE SEEN THIS ALR MAYBE... BUT AAAAAAAAAA HAKUNO IS PLAYABLEEE!!! 😭😭😭 AFTER YEARS OF THEM BEING REFERENCED AND HINTED IN THE GAME THEY ARE HERE AS A PLAYABLE UNITTTT 😭😭😭🫶🫶💓💕💖💗

words cannot express the emotions i am feeling rn bc i have fr waited literal years (since high school to my last semester in uni… SNIFFLES) and i deadass still have my 500+ pulls saved for hakuno despite having no confirmation for playable hakuno at all back then LOL i just luvs hakuno kishinami…… a whole lot….. okok 😭🩷

im gonna be so real tho i'm only peeking in to see the hakuno parts bc that is how my brain functions 🚶‍♂️ and seems like this is a hakuno after all their development + 1000 YEARS OLD ⁉️ + knows abt the different routes/timelines from the extraverse…. probably going to be a bit different from my portrayal bc i've taken her before all that growth but i am a happy lil lynnie.!!!! hakuno's characterization has been so good 🥹 and fits how i've been interpreting their character :]

AND IT DOES KINDA FIT WITH HOW I'VE BEEN WRITING HAKUNO'S FGO VERSE..... i will be updating it Soon(TM) 🫵 so chaldea masters be prepared bc u might just be receiving a moon cancer from yours truly uwu 💖 but i will def be a bit canon divergent bc i . do not want to be extella-based at all VEKFJSKCJS (<- i am so excited for this alr tho bc give me scenarios of hakuno protecting ur muse. fighting together working together???? 👀✨️)

i will go so insane once hakuno is properly released because we will get their character profile and biography and dialogue and just!!! MORE STUFF ABT HAKUNO 😭😭���🫶 SUCH A W FOR LYNN NATION i'm waiting until then bc i wanna make sure i get the hakuno dialogue down pat.... and just make sure their character is consistent ububuu

so cute how hakuno's like a cool dependable senpai figure to ritsuka (fgo mc) in the event btw…….. but hakuno is hakuno so like . sbkvhsjfx

Hakuno: But you can't see inside because of the cake wall… If I could eat this and make a hole… Ritsuka: Hey, Kishinami Hakuno…! This is definitely a bad thing to eat!

GAP MOE 2 ME…….. 😭😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷

THERE ARE SOOOOOO MANY GOOD LINES AND MOMENTS THO. i have fr been screenshotting everything hakuno says bc i love it i love him i love her AUGHGHH,,, <333

[onthecrescentofthehill]

g1deon and pyrrha + gideon and harrow throughlines scattered in all of tlt continue to drive me insane.

the initial investigation scenes post the 5th deaths where the 2nd house tries to pull cohort rank control of the situation, gideon & harrow immediately sneak away to learn that the winnowing trial was developed by the second house and cohort founders, g1deon & pyrrha. winnowing as incorporating the other, refusing distractions for the sake of true control, loyalty and duty.

gideon is wearing his sunglasses, rifling through their things. she doesn’t see it as a real place someone would live in, only a stop along the way to somewhere else, more whole.

she sees a gun on the wall that her mother's ghost will use the river memory of to try and kill harrow in the dream of cannan house:

It took Gideon a long time to realise that she was looking at something goddamn ancient: it was a blowback carbine gun. She’d only ever seen pictures. ….. The hairs on the back of Gideon’s neck had risen when the lights came on, and they hadn’t gone back down, as if her intrusion might well tempt time back to claim its grave goods. GTN chapter 19

Carbine rifle, read the key. For a moment she pitied Judith Deuteros’s last seconds. To be killed with this ancient piece of grave goods! It would have been like being set upon by a ghost out of time. HTN chapter 18

gideon reads "one flesh, one end" for the first time. she tells harrow these people were living in each others pockets, the same phrase she'll later use to describe the two of them. pyrrha spent nearly 10,000 years locked in a drawer in gideon the first’s mind bc he couldn't bear to let her go. gideon tells harrow how they feel like strangers despite growing up together.

harrow cant stand the thought and in less than a month harrow will lock gideon in a drawer and gideon the first will relentlessly try to kill harrow in her waking hours to spare her the agony he'll never learn is closely parallel to his, and when she fails to hear his real name her brain starts bleeding:

And he had said: “Ortus, have pity.”

“This is my pity, Lord,” said the Saint of Duty. HTN chapter 20

g1deon was john’s oldest friend, he carried that suitcase in his loyalty to him. then he becomes an amnesiac, immortal thanergy void, absorbing and nullifying the echoes of that catastrophe. founding the cohort that flips planets in the exact mirror to the ecological tragedy they all sacrificed everything to spare earth from. over and over again.

He didn’t even ask me to explain. That was the kind of guy he was. He and I had grown up on the same street. I’d spotted him for mince pies all the time as kids, so stands to reason he let me cut off his arm and carried a nuke for me. John 1:20

in g+p’s room harrow says that theyre all the ninth house has ( = you’re all that i have). gideon firmly says shes "NO ONE'S son or daughter"

but in less than a year gideon’s mother, sitting opposite her father, will recognize pyrrha with a sense of profound relief before her revenant is unceremoniously killed. gideon will watch through harrows eyes, in hiding:

Harrow, I will never forget the look on her face as long as I live, or as long as I die. (…) It was the smile for your old cellmate who’d just landed back in prison, the one that told them at least you were in it together—or more correctly, the smile of someone stepping out of jail after serving a very long sentence, having seen someone there waiting for her. Someone whose presence meant total reprieve, someone she hadn’t expected. It was a little bit mocking. It was deeply relieved. HTN chapter 50

i don’t have a conclusion to this rn i’m just……much to think abt. the displacement of grief, the loyalty through control, how it just happens over and over and over again and they just bear witness as tools or trapped souls or revenants, clinging to anything they can even if they don’t remember it.